Another year has gone by.  I never liked to do reflections upon my past one year and what I have done.  There are many things I know I am not proud of, many regrets, many pains and tears.  I cannot say it has been a really bad year, nor can I say it has been great.  Life goes on anyway, and yes, people do change.  How and why they change is a mystery.

I hate making new year resolutions therefore I stopped doing it years ago.  I don't want to set any goals only to disappoint myself and cause more heartache.  Yeah, I may be a pessimist sometimes, maybe sometimes it is just to protect myself from pain?  Yet pain seems to be the number one thing I am most vulnerable to, it almost seems as though it had become my best friend!  I'm so used to it, sometimes without Pain around, I feel weird.  I feel so alone.  Yet sometimes I wish it would just go away.  Forever.

Christmas season this year has lost its magic.  I don't feel all warm and fuzzy anymore, nor am I in the mood to make cute bookmarks for friends like I used to back in uni.  I cannot say Christmas is the same as it used to be in the past years because it isn't.  Sometimes I wonder if it is I who have changed, perhaps this is why the good old Christmas feeling has eluded me this time around.  I think too much.  I don't want to, but those thoughts just keep coming in.

Whatever it is, Christmas feeling or not, I guess it doesn't really matter anyway.  What matters is the true meaning of Christmas.  And this, I know, will never fade from my heart.

Hope you enjoy this song below... it is my favourite Christmas song and the most meaningful of them all.  Hope this Christmas brings you warmth and joy and abundant blessings from above :)


Happy birthday, Jesus.